Where do I begin? I was diagnosed with BP when I was 12 and it's been a roller coaster ever since. I am 21 now and for the longest time on depakote. It
worked great and then I thought I was fixed and I would stop. Big mistake. My mood swings are terrible and it's a surprise to me I still have any loved
ones around. Recently the depakote stopped working so I tried lithium. HA that was the worst. I was in a daze, dizzy, sick to my stomach, and these horrible
headaches. I could only take it for a week and now I am back going through my mood swings.
I feel so alone and hopeless. I can't really talk to anyone because they just cant relate and they really don't understand. The worst thing is I will be like this forever. A monster is what I feel I am. I made my mom cry today but not on purpose I was just so angry. Knowing that I hurt her feelings just kills me and I do it all the time when I'm not on meds.
I need someone to talk to. Someone who can relate and maybe give some advice. Maybe some suggestions on medicines that work for you?
I feel so alone and hopeless. I can't really talk to anyone because they just cant relate and they really don't understand. The worst thing is I will be like this forever. A monster is what I feel I am. I made my mom cry today but not on purpose I was just so angry. Knowing that I hurt her feelings just kills me and I do it all the time when I'm not on meds.
I need someone to talk to. Someone who can relate and maybe give some advice. Maybe some suggestions on medicines that work for you?

